last night was beyond interesting. (although i looked amazing as Katy Perry lol) i ran into this situation of all dressed up and no where to go. I walked into this PREparty with drugs all around me…and for once, I just did not want to be associated with that at all. I ended up meeting some other friends at a bar called Library. I had more fun meeting random people calling me katy perry than i did inside.
I don’t fit in where i once did. its a wierd feeling. to all of my friends I do, but i guess they don’t know me that much anymore…and/or im finally facing who I am now.
I don’t mind, im happy now, but last night felt extremely alone.just alone when i was with friends.. and for the first time in a while the urge to cut was so extremely bad, but i resisted so this change must be good. He cheered me up and thats why I love him so much. i usually don’t do personal posts…but this overall feeling was so great not to vent. some people change, and some people don’t.